Overcome...

What makes people overcome things in life?? I keep listening to this song “Overcome” by Creed…over and over and over. It is so empowering to me right now in my life. I have SOOOO many emotions going through my head at this very moment and I’m doing my best to sort through them.

I just left the love of my life 1,000 miles away from me…again. It hurts like hell more and more each time!! I need to find a job, but don’t really want to, but I do want to…hell, it’s too confusing in my head. I’m working toward my degree. I have lost 110 pounds in the past 6 months. I feel pulled in so many ways by so many people.

Why am I doing this to myself?? What IS important to ME??

As the song says, “You’ll never know what I was thinkin before you came around. Take a step, take a breath, put your guard down. I cannot worry anymore of what you think of me. I may be crazy, but I’m buried in your memory!! I’m entitled to overcome.”

My God, my husband, myself, my family, my church, my career, my friends…and in that order. That’s what is important to me. So many things are happening in my life, yet nothing is happening at all, and all of this is going on at the same time. Maybe it’s time to get to the simpler things in life.

Listening to it again…my favorite part of this song has to be the beginning. “Don’t cry victim to me. Everything we are and used to be is buried and gone!!!!!”

So what is it then that people do to overcome?? Not sure about anyone else, but I know mine begins with praying to the one that created me and all that I have been blessed with in this life and all that I will be blessed with in the life to come. For me to overcome anything that may hit me in the face, I have to know that I have the love and support from the love of my life. Regardless of my own feelings, if he doesn’t support me and my efforts, those efforts become non-existent. I thank God that he does support everything I do in my life, and that he tells me what his thoughts are as I go on in my journey so that I’m able to intertwine him in to my dreams and goals. I wouldn’t have it any other way!!

Well that’s how it begins for me. I’m still working on the rest to this point. I do know that I have a great foundation to work with. My family loves me through everything I do in life, whether they agree or disagree is another story, but they always love and support ME. That’s all I need to know.

For me to overcome…Jamie Lynn has to pull out of this funk that she calls “life”. Really?? What the hell is it that keeps me here?? Not sure, but I really don’t care anymore. All I know is that I’m a survivor and will make it through anything the Lord puts in my path to challenge me. Just watch!!!!