The Power of Positive Thinking...

I have heard it a million times before and told so many people about it. Why is it that I am just now beginning to understand how it all works in my own life then?? I do not have an answer for that...but I am sure glad it is working...that is all I can say about it!! It is so true though. The way we think in life is exactly how things happen...so why not make it positive and full of good things??

Well, since my house was broken in to in April, I moved in with my sister. This has been a whole new world of experiences for me...and awesome ones at that!! It is just her and I with her 5 kids. It is definitely a challenge...but one that has been fun and that I welcome with open arms. My Uncle Joey has also passed away. Although we all miss him, I know that everyone is just glad that he did not suffer for very long. It was only about 5 or 6 weeks from the time that he was diagnosed with cancer until he died. The 1 year anniversary of Ashley's death is coming fast...too fast!! August 12th...the worst day of my life...but I know the best day of hers. I miss you little sister!! I love you so much sweetie!!

So what else has changed for me?? I no longer sit in my room and cry about why things happen to me...I am a good person, so why all of the crap...that kind of stuff. I am out and about doing things to better myself. I start a new job in about 2 weeks and it is going to be awesome!! Can't wait for that. I also start school in about 3 weeks...this will be interesting...but awesome all at the same time!! I had surgery 2 weeks ago...had to do something good for myself. I have lost 31 pounds since surgery and I am just so excited to feel better finally!!

It is hard to describe...but it is like things are finally falling in to place, right where they are meant to be. Sure I have my moments and days just like anyone else does, they are just few and far between...and much less dramatic now. I have learned that the only reason that all of these positive things are happening is because I am actually doing what I have been telling everyone else to do for so long...telling myself that things are just the way they are supposed to be and actually believing it. I do believe it...things happen the way they are meant to happen. I am happy!! Finally...for once in the last year...things are getting brighter. I have an incredible Angel...her name is Ashley Ann Mortensen Collins and I am so glad that she is my sister forever!!!